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baller15 @ 2005-05-17T20:49:00

2005-05-18T01:26:30Z

WOW yall its been WWWAAAYYY to long since i wrote in this beast. So alot has changed i've been working at TCBY for about 7 1/2 months and on the 28th it will be 8 months exactly. I had a piece of shyt car for a couple months but i now have a nice 2003 Nissan Sentra SER. So how about saturday i got CRUNK at karis birthday party. It was tyte as hell and im so glad she had a good time. AND friday is her 16th birthday and i just wanted her ti know HAPPY B0DAY!!! So next thursday is the last day of school and it will be summer WHOO-HOO!!! even tho i have basketball 3 times a week and ill be work quite a bit but im gonna live up this summer cuz next year is my senior year baby!! Also my mom and i are talking about gettin me my tattoo finally and hopefully we can follow through on it. But my best friend/soul sister Nichole is going to be in California for aobut a month and 1/2 during summer and she wont be here. Which is gonna be the worst thing about summer. I'm gonna miss her b-day and visversa but im gonna send her sumthin but who knows wut yet but i have a while. So thursday im going out to dinner at outback with lindsay, katie, and julie. It's gonna be so fun. Well im out cuz im watching One tree hill! Im out love yall

Sorry yall

2004-04-26T20:07:08Z

hey everyone sorry about the inconvience but i changed my journal to baller_15 cuz sara needed to change the setting to make it officially pimped lol. so thats now my new journal

Great saying

2004-04-26T00:06:09Z

Hey everyone i just wanna put this in here cuz its so awesome and so true for me and sara im sry but i stole it from ur profile. lol:
girls are like apples...the best ones are at the top of the trees.
See, boys don't want 2 reach for the good ones bc they r afraid of falling and gettin hurt. Instead, they go for the rotten apples, the ones on the ground. These aren't as good, but they're easy. So the apples at the top think that there is sumthing wrong w/them, when,in reality, they are amazin They just have to wait 4 the rite boy to come along, the one whos brave enough 2 climb all the way to the top
^like isnt that the shyt. its so true and is worded exactly right. But im out yall i just wanted to put this in here. O yea i was talkin on the phone w/ melina for almost an hour till 2:20 last night. Im tired cuz a had a really freaky dream. Melina knows wut im talkin about. They are red, yellow, and green. AHHHH!!!! lol Well pz. Much love Shannon

Sup?

2004-04-25T02:50:17Z

sup my pplz? lol. So things have been kinda weird since tuesday. So thursday i was like so upset and tearin up and like karolina wrote me in 6th and was like wuts wrong, i know sumthins wrong so tell me. Like i didnt even have to tell her and it was sweet that she noticed and actually cared. So we talked about like all of my crap and she was so great. Like by the end of the period i was all happy and im really lucky to have her as a friend. Then after school at home me n my mom talked for an hour and a half about like everythign and she was sayin how shes proud of who ive become and everything and it was good to let all the out and hear that. Then on friday freakin Katie P. comes up to me and was like so i hear uve been talkin shyt about me. Im like wtf?!?! no she did not. And i so was not in the mood so i just went off. I was like no ur the one that talks about everyone and no one likes u...but they are to chicken to say it to ur face but im not i dont like u. and then i walked of like it felt good to get taht off my chest cuz she talks so much shyt it's not even funny. But i kinda wish i didnt blow up cuz like i kinda feel bad cuz idk even tho she deserved it. Then 7th period im studying for our test w/ ashley and right when the tests are being passed out melina passes back a note to me and on the front it says to shannon and then it said sry. i was so confused i was like wut? So i open it up and shes bull shytin at me sayin im being a bitch to her and all this stuff and my face dropped. I got up while the teacher passed us our test and i looked her in the face and i was like wtf?!? and she just turned her face i swear i wanted to scream. So i rushed through my test and when the teacher put the movie on i asked if i cudd take melina outside and talk to her. So after a lil beggin she finally said yes. So i take her outside and im like wtf i didnt do anything blah blah blah...we talked it out and then hugged and we were cool within seconds. It's weird how sumtimes i just wanna hit her cuz she makes me mad and then i dont talk to her cuz im mad and then she gets mad at me for not talkin to her and i end up saying sry. But thats melina for ya and i love her to death i guess thats y shes my best friend. The stuff thats shes been talkin about lately i just wanna scream PICK ONE! and melina if ur reading this PICK ONE! lol. Anyways today i went to the mall and i got 4 shirts and i got my hair cut. i got 3 inches takin off it looks really cute. The lady who cut my hair was like mad tyte. me n her talked for like a half an hour while she was doing my hair. She was cool. Anyways guess wut i might volunteer at the hospital this summer. I'm excited im gonna prolly volunteer in the therapy area since i wanna be a physical therapist when i grow up. And my moms friend Jackie who is like basicly my other mom is gonna recommend me so im excited. Who knows we'll see how it goes or if it happens. O idk if i wrote this before but me n lindsay are gonna room together at bball camp this summer im excited and i talked to kar about it cuz me n her had the fight last year and she was like i swear that wont happen and im like how do u know? and she said cuz we werent really friends then and now we a really good friends so i felt good about that. well im out im tired of typing. Love ya.

baller15 @ 2004-04-20T16:38:00

2004-04-20T20:59:23Z

yo yo yo yo yall! So my day started off bad when i was 2 seconds late to class and Mr. Daly yelled at me and freaked out and gave me a detention and im very emotional right now so i was crying and stuff. But i used the perfect girl excuse and told Mr. daly i was in the bathroom cuz i started my period and that melina was in there w/ me to give me the tampon. Well he was so grossed out he was just like ok w/e dont let it happen again. Either way i hate that man w/ all everything i have. Then in second we all had fun and it brightened my day...OMG i didnt tell u about yesterdays second. Well we were Melina, Justin and i were on our way to the second period and like justin gave melina a half way hug and Bobby was watchin from acros the courtyard and he ran over and by then justin was gone but bobby was freakin out it was sorta funny but like way psycoish. Melina had to try to calm him down but it didnt help to much. BUt i was like whoa. Anyways after 2nd today the bball players had a meeting for camp and sumer and everything...like it took up half of 3rd which was great but i acidently heard the wrong room number and at first i went to E123 instead of G123 luckily i saw karolina going that way. I saw a few ppl i didnt like in there like Crista and Katie and if they play summer ball im gonna be mad cuz that wudd ruin my summer but i know those 2 cuddnt even come close to makin it through summer camp. Then i went to 3rd and i think Brooke M. might sponsor me cuz o asked but we were in a rush but i think she will cuz shes awesome like that lol. Then in 4th Samantha sponsored me $5 for my shoot out so i was like hell yea. Well in 6th Karolina and i were talkin and chillin w/ melina and it was all good and stuff. I really do miss talkin to kar but ya kno life goes on. After school Kar took me home but we didnt talk at all. it was weird. But anyways that was my day. Not much but it keeps me busy lol anyways less than 3 months till i get my license Bii. well im out pz

Ever think of these things?

2004-04-20T20:37:30Z

Journal entry
Isn’t it amazing how friendships can end in a blink of an eye. Sometimes people don’t even know y they end they just do. Other are ones mistakes or both mistakes that break the friendship apart. Sometimes its an easy thing to do but others its hard to lose a friend so close. Some drift away and then in the future u think y did i let that happen? Friends are a key importance in ur life, in anyones life. CAn u imagine life w/out some of ur friends there to support u, make ur laugh, or sumtimes just give u that hug that u needed and they knew u did. What if u were a person w/out that? Wut if u had friends but never felt like they cared enough for u? Wut if ur best friend was the worst friend someone cudd have? Is life really that cruel to people? That’s a lot of questions unanswered and there are still so many to ask. When do they end or when do they become answered? Now i ask u a big one wut if u r hurt by a friend but cuddnt just cut this friend out of ur life cuz they are to big apart of it....do u cut them out anyways? These questions run through ppls minds all the time but never answered. Also anyone watchin the swan? Like i feel down about myself (who doesnt) but some of these people and the crap they go through make u think is my problems really that important? ya kno?!?! It makes u reevaluate urself and others. Well now that ive left u w/ those thoughts: With a hug and a kiss im out life this!

hey everyone

2004-04-16T22:41:15Z

yo sup yall? So things are going alright w/ me. I have this friend tho thats stuck in a sorta relationship that she needs to get away from cuz like she deserves way better and not to be treated that way. Anyways so i like this guy. i'm not gonna tell anyone who so they might as well not ask its just if i say it out to ppl he will find out and i dont wanna ruin our friendship.But off that so i realized im addicted to Mike n Ikes. They are soooo good lol. Like i had one and i was like ill have one more and then i ate half a box. Then today i took the rest to school and like if someone wanted one id be like no go away. lol im so mean. hehe. So i didnt write this last time but i drove to 7eleven to get a mountain dew slushie right and like Britney(kars friend) was parked right next to me and i was listenin to my mom and it looked like i was starin at her and all of a sudden shes like hey shannon. i was like o hey britney. I looked so stupid, shes prolly thinks im a dumbass. lol which i am tho. Eni meni miney mo, your mother was a hoe, favorite clown bobo. lol thats in the words of Jay. Shes so funny. I hid her tool in her hood and the whole class period she was lookin for it everyone was laughin. Me, jay, justine, andrew, and tiffany have a ball up in that shizznet. haha! Well im bored so im out...holla at cha gurl. pz

Good day

2004-04-14T21:57:34Z

Yo everyone. sup? Ok last night i fell asleep at 6:30 and i woke up at 6 this morning and i told my mom i was gonna stay home cuz i need to pick up for the cleanin lady. But it wudd take to long, so i stayed home. So i wnet back to bed for 3 more hours so i had 15 hours a sleep. i was like whoa. Well i got bored so i called my gma and went to school at 5th period. I cant believe i actually went to school when i cudd have stayed home. Well i got there and saw i melina and i screamed her name through the hallway and she came runnin at me and lunged at me and i almost fell over when i caught her lol. Then at lunch samantha was really bummed so i tried cheering her up by playin a trick on Ashley Sanchez. I put my gum wrapper in her drink it was funny but ashley didnt even notice till we showed her, it got her to laugh a lil but i cuddnt help her. Anyways before 6th period Melina and Bobby got in a huge fight so i was there to the rescue lol jp. Anyways i talked to her and then in 6th i talked w/ Kar and me n her are cool. I actually gave her a note during lunch and now we are cool. When Shandra and i were in the front of the class for our report when no one was lookin me n her throw a marker each at karolina. It was so funny we were crackin up. I was in a good mood. Then i went to Mr. Daly's room after 6th to get my interum and he freakin made me late and wuddnt give me a pass. I was so pissed. Then in 7th Ashley Olmos was really nice to me. It's weird the last 2 weeks me n her have been really cool. yea that was bascily my day. So i'm out my friends....ill write if anything else good happens. much love

Life sux

2004-04-13T22:05:02Z

Sup everyone? So i talked to karolina today and it was weird cuz like i was mean to a certain point but like shes such a good friend(well sumtimes) and like i didnt wanna be mean but then she turned it around on me and then i was like i knew when ur bishop friends came here u wudd never talk to me anymore. And i walked away but like i didnt mean it like yea its like that sumtimes but i cant be a bitch like that cuz i mean they're her friends. But when i brought up the whole thursday thing she kinda turned it around on me and i was like wtf?!? are u serious? But w/e im over it...i wrote her a note that i think can fix things and will explain to her a lil more how i feel on the situation. Anyways enuff about kar. I havent felt to good today i wish i wudd have stayed home kinda.I'm going through alot of shyt and i need to sort alot of it out but im dealin w/ it in other ways then i shudd but i dont care. Melina knows wut im talkin about. U know melina can be really great sumtimes(lol) cuz like right now im fallin apart and shes right there tryin to pick up my pieces. She was awesome for me today. Cuz like i was on the verge of cryin all day and u kno me i hate cryin in front of other ppl...its like a weakness to me. Also u know wut Shandra has been really great to me lately too. Like i know shes always been nice and all but the last few weeks shes been sweet and caring. And sara and i have been talkin more its pretty cool cuz like we kinda drifted off around the beginning of the year but who knows. But idk things have been rough on me lately and i kinda need a release....i need bball back and soon before i blow. But im out yall....love ya *Muah*

Confused

2004-04-12T04:28:34Z

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!! Actually its been over for 9 minutes but hey whos counting lol. So hes the deal i gotta question and does anyone wanna answer like i know the answer but its weird. But ok i dont do sumthin cuz i think its wrong and stuff but my friends do and since i dont do this im left out alot. So do i do the things to not be left out or stick w/ my morals. Now of coarse my answer is stick w/ how i feel, i shuddnt change for anyone. Thats wut kars says to.(even tho im not talkin to her still). It's like my friends are sumthin i need in my life right but its like just cuz i dont do that gay shyt y leave me left out. Like wtf?!?! idk like this gets to me all the time. And like i have some great friends who arent like that but im not as close to them. which i shudd be. Also wut if u have some friends who are great some times but shitty other times, do i stop being friends w/ them cuz of the way i let them walk all over me. Also and wut if i wanted to stop being friends w/ them its not easy to be like stay away from me, when they like sit next u in ur classes and stuff. Like this stuff runs through my head alot and im finally just writing it down. Like ex. lets call my friend "Erika" now this person i help out alot cuz like im always there for my friends ALWAYS. Even if im pissed at them. Anyways so this person is so self-involved that she doesnt help me when i need it like i know that sounds selfish. But say i tell her my problem she'll be like o0o and then will change the subject to her. its like wtf?!?! And when i finally think i have someone i can talk to about it "Michelle" will listen and help out like i know she really cares but then ditch me all the time. Like it pisses me off and of coarse i dont do anything cuz then i will feel bad and say sry. My friend Monique once told me i let my friends walk all over me and at the time i was like w/e ur just full of it but she was right. I'm a human punchin bag and i just keep takin it and takin it and i bottle it up inside. I think i dont bother ppl w/ my problems is cuz i feel like im burdenin them cuz their problems are more important than mine. And when i finally get the nerve to bring it up they change the subject to themselves. idk just call me confused and stupid. well im out im tired. Love yall.

My thursday

2004-04-10T16:34:10Z

Hey yall this is now my new journal cuz the one i was at is now makin the ppl pay and u know im not gonna pay when i can just make a new one for free. lol So lets update u. karolina was suppose to take me home thursday and pick up my bro, she promised cuz i had no other way home. So i call her around 6th period cuz i hear she left and went to perkins w/ some friends. i call and she was like o no i forgot. U kno me i have already been very edgy lately so this just put me over. Shes like well i guess ill come back when do u want me to and im like whenever u can so she said ill be there at 2. im like ok so im all pissed that she forgot and melina is calmin me down. The bell just rang and school is out (which is 2). I look at my cell and it says i missed a call. So i call it and it was jimmy he said they were stuck in the mall cuz britneys mom was there and they were close to gettin caught and they dont know when they cudd pick me up. Ugh me being stressed out so much lately im like fine bye and i start cryin. Cuz im thinkin i have to walk to my bros school and then ill have to walk home w/ him...im furious. So i call my mom and tell her all this and of coarse she was already on her way to her trip. So luckily she makes arrangements w/ sum1 and i got a ride. but by then its 2:45. And then i get a phone call and it says karolina and im like o great! So she calls and is laughin and tell me this story and im like uh huh w/e. She asks if i still need a ride im like no forget it. Shes like r u sure im like yea w/e bye and i hang up. So its now saturday and we havent talked...and i bet she doesnt even think there is anythign wrong. But when tuesday rolls around trust me im not gonna be dealin w/ it im gonna be the biggest bitch. Cuz i cant believe she did that to me. So she started off my vacation horribly. Like im thinkin this will be great she said we were gonna chill when she picked me up and everythig sumthin she hasnt done since bball ended and britney came to school. i know this sounds stupid but she kinda acts like she to good to be my friend. But when she has a problem all of a sudden we are great friends. Like dont get me wrong i love this girl to death she is one of my best friends and im happy to be there for her when she needs me but like the way she treats me sucks ever since that fight we had the last district game. Anyways through all this melina has been outstanding to me. i love her shes my bestestest friend and she stands by me always like i have for her. Im her shoulder to cry on(literally). Hey melina next time tho sniff not blow lol. Well my moms out of town so ive been babysittin my bro all weekend. So ive been bored lol. I'm gonna go...love yall. pz